solstice

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  solstice came and went and so the light starts hanging around a little longer each day. i usually do some sort of summer solstice ritual of an all day ride or run to celebrate the longest stretch of sunlight of the year but i'm beginning to think i've had it all wrong. as awesome as that 15+ hours of sunlight is, it's still a symbol of the sun going away a little bit more each day. my mind knows this and my body knows it. and by the end of each one of those summer solstice rituals my soul has recognized it and i'm just a little more sad knowing this.
you can't see for the fog but there's a bridge there
  this winter solstice is already feeling better than it ever has before. i can actually feel the darkness lifting. a couple minutes more of daylight each day begins to add up then daylight savings time and before i realize it, i'm out running later and later, wearing less clothing, and not to mention that more foods come in season and begin to taste better.
  this has been a heavy year with a lot to think about and deal with. i'm looking forward to a mindless 2014 of just doing the "next" thing. not worrying so much about doing the best thing or not doing the wrong thing. just concentrating on the task at hand. choosing my obstacles as my guide and confronting each one as i follow my path.
  i left a path of destruction and self-destruction in my wake this last year and with the returning light i'm hoping all our wounds can begin to heal. i truly believe there is a revolution happening. wether it's as the whole or just the individual i can't say. but there will be some disturbance as this change happens. we can fight it or we can accept it. we can adapt or we can.....

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