addiction is addiction is addiction
it's been asked (or just plain stated) at times wether all my running and cycling is just transferring my addiction. i always get a little wound up with this and tend to go off a bit but to be honest, "yes." yes, it probably is. i know how i acted when i was as an alcoholic and an addict and i know how i act as a sober endurance athlete. i think i can make my peace with this idea of "just switching addictions." one of the differences i've noticed is when hard times and D&A (drugs and alcohol) are combined, i put on a mask. that mask can take a few different forms, wether it's being funny, the face of an addict angry, violent, conniving, etc. pretty much anything to cover my fear, shame and whatever lies i'm weaving. take away the D&A and try running or biking anywhere between 5-12 hours and the mask comes off. somewhere in there the true self comes out. wether it's how you handle your body feeling like it's falling apart, ...