no brain, no pain
http://www.strava.com/activities/104075351 only three workout days this week. it's only the first week of the year and i'm already freaking out that i'm not training enough. jesus, what the hell is wrong with me? i ran without my ipod tonight. just me and my thoughts. mind numbing, right? actually it's not that bad. for some reason, running with music ca sometimes lead me deeper and deeper into that inner dialogue vortex where nothing good ever comes of it. that inner dialogue that turns more into an interrogation on what am i doing with my life... what the hell was i thinking...does karma really exist...you get the idea. all these years of sobriety and nothing has really changed. except maybe the coping mechanism. where i used to use drugs and alcohol to shut out the voices, now i rely on prolonged pain and exertion. running, cycling, more tattoos, low carb diets.... there are the days where i just don't want to get off my ass and do ANYTHING much less go ...