DaCrizzow

http://www.strava.com/activities/104075351   only three workout days this week. it's only the first week of the year and i'm already freaking out that i'm not training enough. jesus, what the hell is wrong with me? i ran without my ipod tonight. just me and my thoughts. mind numbing, right? actually it's not that bad. for some reason, running with music ca sometimes lead me deeper and deeper into that inner dialogue vortex where nothing good ever comes of it. that inner dialogue that turns more into an interrogation on what am i doing with my life... what the hell was i thinking...does karma really exist...you get the idea.   all these years of sobriety and nothing has really changed. except maybe the coping mechanism. where i used to use drugs and alcohol to shut out the voices, now i rely on prolonged pain and exertion. running, cycling, more tattoos, low carb diets....   there are the days where i just don't want to get off my ass and do ANYTHING much less go ...

http://www.strava.com/activities/1035959   starting out with a big run for 2014. had been up in the air about doing a 20 this soon. needed a 16 for training for a race in february but a 20 was really clouding my head. i had a "meeting" earlier in the morning and it left me a little wound up. (more on that another time). i hadn't even eaten yet so after the meeting i came home and had three eggs. filled two water bottles, one with water and the other with two packets of those starbucks via packets. (http://www.starbucks.com/coffee/medium/iced-coffee-blend/via) and headed out the door.   i can't hardly listen to music anymore on my runs unless it's some instrumental traditional world music but usually it's either a podcast or nothing at all. for myself, running in winter can be a little too much like "training" than i prefer. as i prefer the shorts, minimalist shoes, no socks, no shirt, maybe some water (maybe not) and heading out for as long as i ca...